Out of the Box

Archive for the ‘Personal thoughts’ Category

It’s quite gloomy weekend! The sky is overcast and the morning breeze is cool. Oh how I love it! This kind of weather makes me want to snuggle under the sheets. I just hope it won’t rain later today because we’ll be going out. Hey, this is one of the two days of the week that I get to see the outside world so please spare us the rain. Let it rain late in the evening instead. But please give us just moderate rain because last night’s super heavy and long downpour scared me to death. I am thankful for the rain though because I won’t be watering my plants for a day or two.

With my height of 4 feet 11 inches I obviously lack growth hormone or what they call hgh (human growth hormone). My pituitary gland must have stopped producing growth hormones after my early teens because it was the time when my growth became stagnant until all my other friends became taller than me! Though being small has its advantages, it has also a lot of disadvantages. Gladly, I didn’t consider being petite as a disadvantage. I’ve no insecurities with my height and I don’t really mind if I am petite while my sisters and friends are taller than me.

Confidence is not really based on a person’s height though for some it does matter. But since I am focused on other things while I was growing up, I didn’t mind at all being smaller than others.

I thought I won’t feel this way because I never remember being envious before. If I learn that a friend is on the way, I celebrate with them and just wish I, too, would conceive soon. But if my monthly visitor arrives, I’ll console myself that it is not yet the right time. Now I just learned that one of my best buddies in HS is on the way for her second child. I find myself wishing I would be pregnant soon and would be taking those prenatal vitamins that I am asking from a MedRep friend. I can’t help it but I am green with envy and found myself asking when would be the right time for us to have a baby? Only God knows when but I hope it would be soon. I am beyond excited to buy baby stuffs, wear preggy dresses, and experience being a mom for the first time.